Self improvement is something I have battled with my whole life. I had a rough upbringing and have gone through some pretty rough patches, neither of which have helped.
I have come a long way through this journey but I still have a ways to go. Today I want to share some of the ways that I plan to continue on my self improvement path to get to a place that I am healthier mentally, physically, and emotionally.
First off, ( in no particular order) my weight and body image…
Before I had kids I was tiny. Although I was skinny, with a flat stomach I still dealt with self-esteem and self-confidence issues. Being skinny is not a permanent fix for that. My weight has fluctuated over the years – I was 85 pounds at 18 before I got pregnant with Autumn and today I am 160 pounds. Am I happy with the reflection in the mirror, no. I have to remember that although I am so much bigger now I am also a much healthier weight because before I was underweight.
People always tell me ” You should be in love with your mom bod. You created beautiful babies with it!” You’re right, I did. I still have the right to not be happy, though, and no one can take that away from me. I love my children dearly and I am so incredibly happy that I was able to carry and create them! That doesn’t mean that I have to love and embrace my mom bod, though. It is okay that I want to lose the weight and make myself feel better.
Another thing that I would like to work on is that fact that I am always second guessing myself. I need to go with my gut and just do it. I spend way too much time overthinking everything and playing out all the different scenarios and then don’t do what I wanted to do because of all the second guessing. At any given time, on any day, you can find me second guessing a decision that I just made – with no regard to what it may be about.
Nine times out of ten, what I am second guessing is so minuscule but I second guess it anyway. I need to be able to rely more on my gut because I know that in doing so I will build more confidence in myself.
Last, but definitely not least, I need to work on opening up and allowing my thoughts to be expressed. I’m pretty open when it comes to certain things but I still remain tight lipped when it comes to other topics. I need to start voicing my opinion more, stop letting people walk all over me, and if it pisses them off… it is what it is. I can’t be bothered with someone else’s feelings about my opinion. Opening up will also allow me even more personal growth.
What’s some self improvement you need to work on?
Xoxo
lena ralene 